bloodthirsty demonness

i am listening to my power ballad mix and it's bringing me down. i noticed that a lot of these songs have questions, though cliched, that at one time we all may have asked ourselves, such as "is this love that i'm feelin?" and "if i close my eyes forever would it all remain the same?" (though maybe not in those exact words.) there are also universal statements such as "love bites, love bleeds, it's what i need." and "i won't forget you babe, even though i should." and somehow this alludes to universal suffering. and though the delivery is somewhat cheesy, such songs have a capability to bring one quickly back to the visceral feeling of that forgotten or elusive moment of heartbreak or disappointment. hence the statement "these power ballads are really bringing me down. wtf."

today:
*everylittlething seemed to go wrong at work, which was frustrating.
*i saw something that made me feel really really weird.
*i cut my hair and i thought the right side was shorter than the left, so i cut more, and now it's just too short all over.
*was contacted regarding many bpal trades, which generally go along the lines of something like "omg i really want ides of march- want to trade for blood moon? ps. how about ouija for perversion?" etc. and that seems really funny, but that is also good because i want to be rid of this crap.
*read a lot about the enneagram, and am finally sure that i am indeed, a 4 (with a 5 wing). how goth.

i should go to sleep but i am so far from tired because i am thinking too much and can't shut off my mind.